Ascension Insights --
In the Land of the Obvious, Looking for a Clue
August 25, 2010
We're feeling like we're in the land of the obvious and looking for a clue. Just when we are sure that we finally know what we are doing we find out that everything has changed. After months or years of working on ourselves, do we feel any differently than before? Maybe we don't because it has taken us such a long time to get here that we have completely forgotten the person we used to be, and maybe that is a good thing. I, for one, am glad to be beyond the fear, doubt, confusion and uncertainty that I used to have.
What will life be like with my newly learned confidence? As soon as I get back into the world, I will let you know. Like many others, I have also been keep out of circulation for the past few years and I know it was for a good reason but I'm tired of being by myself all of the time. I want to move to the biggest, most congested place I can find and then relish the noise, traffic and busy-ness.
But first let's talk about the obvious because despite our best efforts, life just does not feel obvious right now. What are we doing now and where will it lead us? How can we feel so secure one day and mired in doubt and confusion the next? Why does it seem that just as we are sure of the next step, everything changes in the next moment? We are experiencing dramatic shifts in consciousness and seeing immediate results in our thinking and life experience from the clearing work we are doing now. And we're getting immediate confirmation. Let me share my experience of this week.
First, a little history. I have worn contact lenses for almost thirty years. Every night I take my contact lenses out, put them in a case with saline solution and put the case on the side of my bathroom sink. I do this the same way, every day. So on Sunday night I took my contact lenses out and put the case on the side of the sink. Then I went to bed. Monday morning I got up, went into the bathroom to put my lenses on. But they were not on the sink where I had left them the night before. The case was gone and although I looked everywhere, I could not find it. So I got a new pair of lenses and bought a new case to replace the old one.
Now over the weekend I did a lot of clearing work, on very deep karmic levels. On Friday I went to bed and asked the Council I work with to show me exactly what I needed to work on, the specific past life energy I was clearing, who I was dealing with and to let me know when I was finished so I could look at my life in a different way.
After spending the weekend clearing, I had to get new contact lenses and a new case on Monday morning. The Universe does have a strange sense of humor.
When I was trying to figure out what happened to my contact lenses, I replayed my motions in my head but could only get as far as putting the case on the side of the sink. Is that what happened or am I so wired to remember that process in this way that I can't remember it any other way? Are my memories so obvious that they blind me to the reality of what really happened during my contact lens ritual?
As we are clearing our karma and its energies, we are also learning to see ourselves, our life, others, our potential and the world in different ways. But our memories are so hard wired that every aspect of our life is an illusion which they create. We are afraid to know that there is no fixed reality, as everything simply unfolds from our thoughts. There is no lack or abundance, no joy or pain, no fear or love, except that which we allow ourselves to experience. And if our hard wired memories do not include allowances for joy, abundance and love, then we cannot know them.
That why when we beg the Universe to fix our life it doesn't respond. Our hard wired memories are creating our reality, not the Universe. It's only responding to the reality memories we are replaying for the millionth time.
We can use affirmations, positive thinking, attend countless classes and seminars and work very hard at changing our reality. But until we can go beyond the habits of our memories, we will continue to create the only reality that they allow us to.
I can see myself putting the lens case on the side of the sink but is that what really happened? While it is what I remember but is that what I did in that moment or is my memory of my nightly contact lens ritual so ingrained that while I saw myself doing it, I was really doing something else instead, something that is so out of alignment with my usual routine that my mind could not register it as a memory? Hmmm, I need to think about that.
This gives us food for thought-is life as we are really living it or is it just imagined? How much of our unfolding reality is based on the truth of the present moment and how much is imagined from habit? What role do our memories, in this lifetime and from all of our lifetimes, play in the life we have today? If we were to release them all right now, what kind of life would we be living?
When we ask the Universe for a new vision, a new way of seeing ourselves and the world, are we prepared to let go of all those memories and learn to let life unfold in this moment? We'll certainly have to be present in each moment so we remember where we put things! And by the way, I still have not found my contact lens case...
As you ponder this and the other things that are happening at this time (and Mercury is retrograde, which is a great time for reconsideration), remember to:
Accept all gifts of understanding with gratitude and use them to apply forgiveness, release and healing to every situation.
Ask for guidance and confirmation and then wait for it to come to you.
Above all, be grateful for this opportunity to be part of humanity's amazing shift in consciousness as we all ascend into the miracle vibration.
Many blessings in these miraculous and amazing times,
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