Saturday, September 24, 2011

My Musical Path

Music has always been an important part of my daily life, my biggest desire as a child was to go to a music course and learn to play the guitar, piano or any other instrument, no matter what..but for an average Turkish family in Germany it wasn't very common to send their child to a music course and my silent and hiding nature never allowed me to express such a desire. And I guess since Gardner hadn't yet developed the theory of Multiple Intelligences my mother never saw that side in her girl although she had studied social pedagogy and was a kindergarten teacher. So I never learned to play anything...

At least, they nurtured my interest in music by buying the latest albums and my favorite singles even when I was very little.

The First Years; 1974-1980
The first three years were of course passive exposure to music my uncles and aunts were listening to back then, which was mainly Pink Floyd, Bruce Springsteen, Eagles and later Queen, Dire Straits etc. Thanks God no exposure/imposure to/of the Bee Gees and ABBA. My first single was Umberto Tozzi's "Ti Amo". I think I was 4 years old...

Followed by "Rivers of Babylon" by Boney M.

Again passive exposure to AC/DC, Kiss, Led Zeppelin and similar bands which would be showing its effect in later years.

Gosh, those were the years...the famous 80's. Reading "Bravo" Magazine and watching the music show "Formel Eins"...
Michael Jackson, Madonna, George Michael, Prince, Bon Jovi, Cyndie Lauper,Guns'n Roses, Kim Wilde, Kool&the Gang, Spandau Ballet, Nena, Queen, Phil Collins, Rolling Stones, Sade, Scorpions, The Cure, and so many many more...I was quite average, my room was full with posters of Michael and Madonna for a long time.

When I started "Gymnasium" one of the first "topics" in music class were the Beatles. That's when I got to know them better and started to like. Very soon my interest in Glam/Hard Rock arouse, of course Bon Jovi, Guns'n Roses, Scorpions, Europe, etc..but there was also a short period where it got harder, darker and faster...with Helloween, W.A.S.P. and tougher pieces by Metallica and even some death metal stuff.

Then I went into another direction. German Punk Rock.

"Die beste band der Welt: Die Ärzte." Die Toten Hosen, usw...
Other German singers I liked were Herbert Groenemeyer and Udo Lindenberg.

1989, a turning point for me and for Germany. My return to Istanbul and the fall of the Berlin Wall. The following two years spent with adaptation and creating a new life, rather shallow in terms of music, not only for me but in general I would say. During my university years I first went back to rock and metal, then a short phase with Depeche Mode...

After those years a 2.5 year period of heavy night life while working as a dealer in a casino. Lots of music, fun, entertainment and crazy days and nights...spending most nights at the best bar ever, "She" Bar in Arnavutkoy. Those who know the place will remember the following theme song..around 3am ever morning.


Change of taste, entering the world of (smooth) jazz with Norah Jones and pending between classic jazz and blues. And, of course, Tarkan...

Lots of memories...

A wider range of Jazz, R&B, Classical Music, New Age, Italian, French and German music, sometimes Fado, sometimes Turkish Pop. An effort to find my style or simply being open to variety? Whatever...

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

One inspiring and enlightening woman...

Happy Bayram to everyone...

Yesterday I came across a woman called Anita Moorjani in an interview by Lilou Mace and the more I found out about her story of NDE the more I felt inspired and enlightened. I found her aura and light to be so pure and sparkling or maybe that's how I chose to see her. Not all people with NDE or any other experience or knowledge have the same effect on me but while watching her I felt like going through the same experience with her, feeling what she felt and relating so much to the emotions she's describing..

Here's the interview and below her website with more details...

Friday, August 19, 2011

Refreshment: Zeitgeist Movies

Yesterday I was talking to a friend about the Zeitgeist movies, while sending her the links I felt like watching them again...
Here they are if you also want to refresh & re-watch or watch for the first time...

Zeitgeist: The Movie - 2007 by Peter Joseph from on Vimeo.,%20The%20Movie-%20Companion%20Guide%20PDF.pdf

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

My Song Of The Week (high vol. pls)

[Frank Ocean]

Human beings in a mob
What's a mob to a king?
What's a king to a god?
What's a god to a non-believer?
Who don't believe in anything?

We make it out alive
All right, all right
No church in the wild


Tears on the mauseoleum floor
Blood stains the coliseum doors
Lies of the lips of a priest
Thanksgiving disguised as a feast
Rollin' in the Rolls-Royce Corniche
Only the doctors got this, I'm hidin' from police
Cocaine seats
All white like I got the whole thing bleached
Drug dealer chic
I'm wonderin' if a dove's prayers reach
It's pious Pius, the god loves Pius
Socrates asks, "Whose bias do y'all seek?"
Or for Plato, the screech
I'm out chere ballin', I know you hear my sneaks
Jesus was a carpenter, Yeezy, he lay beats
Hova flow the Holy Ghost, get the hell up out your seats

Human beings in a mob
What's a mob to a king?
What's a king to a god?
What's a god to a non-believer?
Who don't believe in anything?

We make it out alive
All right, all right
No church in the wild

Let me buy you
I stand by you
Walk through the fire
Your life
Is my Scripture
And I need it
Through your encryption
Yeah, yeah

[Kanye West]

Coke on her black skin made a stripe like a zebra
I call that jungle fever
You will not control the threesome
Just roll the weed up until I get me some
We formed a new religion
No sins as long as there's permission'
And deception is the only felony
So never fuck nobody wit'out tellin' me
Sunglasses and Advil
Last night was mad real
Sun comin' up, 5 a.m.
I wonder if they got cabs still
Thinkin' 'bout the girl in all-leopard
Who was rubbin' the wood like Kiki Shepard
Two tattooes, one read "No Apologies"
The other said "Love is cursed by monogamy"
That's somethin' that the pastor don't preach
That's somethin' that a teacher can't teach
When we die, the money we can't keep
But we prolly spend it all 'cause the pain ain't cheap

Human beings in a mob
What's a mob to a king?
What's a king to a god?
What's a god to a non-believer?
Who don't believe in anything?

We make it out alive
All right, all right
No church in the wild
No church in the wild
No church in the wild
No church in the wild

Monday, August 8, 2011


Back home, after very busy days...a wedding, a sick child, a retro mercury...good to be in Izmir again.
Nice it was though...

Friday, July 29, 2011

What do you want?

Allison Rae is asking:
What do you want?

When we’re little, that’s what people are always asking, right? These days, the Universe is asking. And it’s waiting for your answer.

The cosmic force of creation needs you to focus the lens, to get clear on your vision, your dreams, your intent. You can take a giant step forward with whatever you want this weekend when three energetic gateways converge.

You can shoot for the mundane stuff, like a new car or a better job, maybe a date for Saturday night or someone to babysit your toddlers.

Or you can go for the gusto and tackle the big issues like getting free of addictions, ending (or beginning) relationships, turning your finances around, living your purpose or moving to a new location.

Why stop there? How about world peace, food for the hungry, shelter for the homeless and alternative energy sources that work?

Do you like the world we live in? Are you fed up with the violence, the greed and corruption, the injustice and insanity?

Do you dream of a more humanitarian world where every life matters, a world of hope and opportunity? Would you prefer to live on a just, nourishing, abundant, joyful and compassionate planet?

Are you tired of your life the way it’s been, your worn-out habits and the repetitive patterns you can’t seem to shake? Here’s your chance.

If you’re willing to participate in making the shift by changing yourself, you’ll start seeing progress quickly.

I’m not talking about chatting on Facebook, sitting around om-ing at peace meditations and love-ins or hoping so-called leaders will turn things around. I mean real-life change, one person and one choice at a time, that ultimately re-shapes the world. Action is required.

Why now

The prophecies of indigenous people everywhere point to these times as a period of intense purification, the transition from the current cycle to whatever comes next.

And guess what? No Native elder, no spiritual guru, no prophet or or pyschic or anyone else can tell you what the next world age will be like. We’re here to create it together.

A momentous opportunity is coming along this weekend to mold the life and the world you do want.

It begins with the new moon on July 30. On July 31, the Fifth Day of the ninth and final underworld of the Mayan calendar begins, coinciding with the Lammas/Imbolc cross-quarter gateway.

The mid-point between the June Solstice and September Equinox, Lammas (or Lughnasadh) continues through the Sun’s crossing of 15 Leo on August 7. The Fifth Day completes on August 17.

The most potent time for getting clear and setting intent is July 30-31. There’s both an opportunity and a responsibility in this.

The impact of thoughts, actions and choices go quantum when cycles line up. That means we can each contribute to planetary transformation more than ever before. On the flip side, if we don’t bother to make the most of this rare shift point, we’ll be giving our power away.

What will you choose?


If you’re going the empowered route, take time every day to imagine the world and the life you want. What does it look like? How does it taste, smell and feel? Notice who’s there with you, and who’s not. How do you spend your time? What are the qualities of this new life and new world?

According to Carl Johan Calleman’s interpretation, the evolution of consciousness accelerates throughout the completion of the nine underworlds of the Mayan calendar this year. Within this, the July 30-31 gateway is particularly potent. This is all designed to shift consciousness in ways that will result in the creation of a new world.

When I read the article I immediately started to think about all the things I was going to focus on this weekend, what I wanted for myself, for others, the world...what I was dreaming of and working on to manifest in the near future...then I had to smile since this weekend I'm going to spend so much time at places I love the most, people I truly love and beautiful, romantic energies flying around.
My dear little brother (tho 31) is going to marry his lovely girlfriend Zeynep tomorrow. That's def. going to create the romantic energy :p
Then we're going to have a small family dinner at Lacivert Restaurant, a beautiful & again romantic venue at the Bosphorus. The restaurant can only be reached by little boats from Rumeli Hisari (European side) to the Anatolian side so the ride to/from the restaurant is another spectacle I'm really looking forward to. Riding on the Bosphorus has always inspired and amazed me...
Since my parent's flat is full with guests we will stay in a hotel for the weekend, Alper arranged Five Boutique Hotel in Harbiye, another place that makes me feel really good and that's close to Nisantasi, another favorite...
For Sunday morning I arranged a special breakfast at Frederic's/SuAda, again in the middle of the Bosphorus. I used to go swimming there when I was living in Istanbul and I remember that it was the most perfect place for dreaming and imagining all kinds of things...
After that some shopping is on the plan probably at Istinye Park and afterwards we're meeting friends at Bebek Starbucks. Bebek is the place I always wanted to live during my years in Istanbul and it still is on top of my wish list of places to live!
I guess I couldn't have organized a more perfect setting to focus on my dreams and desires. I dearly wish everybody the most perfect weekend and pls don't forget to focus on your dreams! So...

What do you want?

Monday, July 25, 2011

Driving with their eyes closed (by Jennifer Hoffman)

"My first thought, when I heard that Amy Winehouse had died, was how sad that such a gifted powerful woman was no longer here and that her death would impact us as much as her life did. Many people will look at her short life and think of her as another hopeless addict, too messed up to take control of her life but that is not what she was. Amy was part of a generation whose purpose is to show us our pain and dysfunction, which they often do by mirroring it themselves. If she made people uncomfortable, or if her music touched us deeply it was because her life, addictions and pain were, in some way, ours too.
It is easy to judge people like Amy Winehouse, and the thousands of other gifted young people we know who appear to waste their lives and their talents. We think 'if I had a gift like that I would make better use of it' or 'if I had that ability I wouldn't be wasting my time and energy on drugs and alcohol.' We love, hate, criticize and judge them because they are such great mirrors of us and our pain. We love them because we can connect and relate to them; we hate them because they remind us of our pain and weakness. And we judge and criticize them because they speak a truth we are afraid to hear.
They seem to be 'driving with their eyes closed', crashing into the walls of society with no regard for themselves. I believe they are highly empathic and can't tell the difference between our pain and theirs, so they take it all in. Everything hurts, all of the time, and drugs and alcohol numb the pain. They try to fix the world by showing us our darkness and dim their own light in the process. They do not know that the easier way is to shine their light brightly but they are too afraid that we will get the wrong impression, so they become a caricature of their truth and hope that by inspiring us to pity and cry with them, that we will get the message.
It is not easy to be part of this transitional generation who have come to change the world and who are so talented that we hold them to a higher standard. So when they try to connect with us through our humanity, by mirroring our pain, we think they are just being stupid. But the situation is much more complicated than that and we, although we don't realize it, are blessed by their life, no matter how short it is, as well as by their passing. One day we will no longer need these kinds of teachers and we can celebrate them, their talent, empathy, gifts and their lives in happier ways."

Jennifer Hoffman

Sunday, July 24, 2011

Last week in Bodrum

Not much to say after a relaxing & uplifting week in Bodrum, Torba. Unlike Cesme I think I could spend the whole summer in Bodrum...even sitting at the beach and doing nothing gives me a feeling of peace and also excitement...very energizing and inspiring..
We stayed in one of the boutique hotels in Torba Bay called Casa dell'Arte, a place that was originally designed as an art gallery and then was turned into a family resort & residence a few years ago. There were interesting art pieces all over the place, some very beautiful, some rather ugly or let's say "interesting".
The really nice ones are being displayed in the residence building which is more suitable for families with older kids (12+) but I couldn't find the time to go and take some pics there..

Here are some of the "pieces" in the family resort & and some beach pics..

Monday, July 11, 2011

Bon Jovi Rocked Istanbul

I wasn't able to go to their concert in Istanbul last Friday but even the  below recordings were enough to take me back to my early teenager years, 25 years ago! (woww, that's tooo long!) I wish I could've been there...hopefully next time!
Isn't he cute :))

And tho not a concert recording here's one of my favorites..

Sunday, July 10, 2011

Summer weekending

Every summer in July/August Izmir turns into ghost town, esp. at weekends everybody escapes to a nearby coastal place like Cesme, Foca, Ozdere, Kusadasi, Ayvalik, etc...
We are going to spend most of our weekends in Cesme, as usual, at our traditional location, Sisus Hotel in Dalyankoy. Except next week when we will spend a few days in Bodrum with my aunt from Germany and the following week a few days in Istanbul due to my brother's wedding.
Here's what our weekends in Cesme will more or less look like...

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

KRYON: The Quantum Factor


The first energy ever discovered that won't allow to be weaponized...that has attitude...

Even to this day, science does not see the obvious, that 90% of DNA is quantum and 3.5% is linear...

Then the next obvious question will occur: "What information is in the ninety percent of DNA that is quantum?"

You're starting to see those who will not allow the old systems. You will no longer have dictators.

Click here to read this channeling...

Saturday, June 25, 2011

Carrot Cake Recipe

Upon request here's my carrot cake recipe :))

4 eggs
300 gr flour
1 pk. baking powder
250 gr butter
250 gr sugar
1 pk. vanilla powder
3 big carrots (grated)
1 teaspoon baking soda
little bit of salt (1/4 tsp)
1 1/2 tsp ground cinnamon
100 gr ground walnuts (or whole walnuts)
100 ml apple juice (very important!)

For the cream cheese:

60 gr butter
250 gr Cream cheese, softened (it's a Philadelphia-like cheese specially for cakes)
250 gr powdered sugar
1 tsp vanilla powder

**Thoroughly grease a round cake pan, mix eggs, butter, sugar and vanilla a separate bowl mix flour and baking powder and slowly add to first mixture...then start adding salt, baking soda, carrots, cinnamon, walnuts and lastly apple juice, mix for 5 min. and pour into cake pan.
Bake at 175 degrees for about 45 min (depends on oven).
For the cream cheese mix all ingredients, put into fridge for 1-2 hrs and cover the cake when cake has cooled and back into fridge. (You can also cut the cake into half with and put cream inside but I usually don't bother and just cover it with cream)

Bon Appetit!

Thursday, June 23, 2011

It's been two years...

...since Ela was born,
...since my life took a deep turn on its path
...since we became a real family

I'm still amazed about the hugeness of love one can feel for another human being...sometimes it still overwhelms me and then comes the fear that this huge love will cause me to worry too much, to want to keep her safe and to not give her enough space to freely explore the world. Freedom was something I felt I didn't have when I was a child, constant worries, constant restrictions, constant limits...
I hope I will be able to balance my desire to provide a safe environment for her and at the same time give her enough freedom to nourish her desire to find her own path, to make her feel free and to learn by making mistakes.
She has changed in the last few days, as if she's feeling that she has grown and has reached a certain milestone on her path. We had a little celebration yesterday morning with a few playgroup friends, and for the first time she had a problem with sharing her things, she cried many times and was quite frustrated. This is a new experience and a good example that it's hard not to intervene as a mom and to just let her figure it out herself. I promised myself that I will try hard to be consistent so that she can learn to handle such situations on her own.
Tomorrow we are going to (slowly) start with potty training. I don't like the word training, in fact, and I won't be really training her, but our new rule will be no nappies at home, just training pants, a potty in every room and regular visits to the toilet. A friend gave her a lovely and very relevant present yesterday, "Girl's Potty Time with special reward stickers" (in Turkish), she likes to read/look at books anyway when  on the potty so this will make it more meaningful I guess :))

my usual, traditional carrot cake :)) don't think will be able to get away with it next year :s

after-party with Elis & Alisa

Saturday, June 18, 2011

Metabolism boosting tea

Summer has arrived and it's time again for bikinis and shorts...since I couldn't do as much sports this winter as I'd have liked to I decided to try another shorter way to get in better shape..
I'm drinking a special tea three times a day, one hour before meals and tho I've just started I can feel that it's working, this drink is supposed to boost your metabolism but I have the feeling it's rather decreasing my appetite esp. for sweet things...probably because of the cinnamon sticks...

Here's how the tea is done:

- 1 apple (cut into 4 pieces)
- 1 lemon   "   "     "    "
- 1 cinnamon stick
- 1/2 teaspoon black pepper corns
- 5-6 cloves

* put all ingr. into 3 lt water, make it boil till just half of it is left, put in the fridge and drink one cup one hour prior to each meal

Monday, June 6, 2011

'The Wise' Magazine

I'm very pleased to introduce a new digital & spiritual magazine: "The Wise"

Welcome to “The Wise” Magazine

The path to knowing yourself is a long, winding road full of obstacles. On our chosen road, we should never forget that we are souls inhabiting this planet. We can neither detach ourselves from the world we live in nor can we detach from our own souls. Hence, The Wise aims to combine spiritual teaching with the experience of daily life while employing both the mind and soul. Just as in life, we welcome all of you to this journey of “The Wise” with topics on spiritualism, esotericism, mysticism, and other consciousness-raising media and discussions. “The Wise” expects to embrace mankind all over the world through mutual issues and pay tribute to our journey which began seven years ago in the lands of Anatolia.

“The Wise” is a bi-monthly magazine published on digital media.
Here are some topics from our first issue and ways to follow “The Wise”:

- 2012: The End or The Change (by Burak Eldem)
- 2012: The Big Awakening (by Aycan Saroglu)
- An Individual Path to Spiritual Transformation (by Nil Gun)
- How to Find Your Soulmate with Feng Shui (by Sonsuz)
- What is Enlightenment? (by Berna Koker)
- Nostradamus: Beyond the Soothsayer (by Burak Eldem)
- Lost Labyrinth of Egypt (by Sonsuz)
- Beware of Your Prayers, They May Come True (by Cem Sen)
- Create Your Own Paradise (by Hakan Arabacioglu)
- Own a House for No Reason (by Pinar Derinbay)
- Astral Projection (by Mehmet Aslan)
- UFOs UFOS Everywhere (by Sonsuz)
- And many more…

“The Wise” Website

“The Wise” Amazon Kindle Version (US) (UK)

“The Wise” PDF Version (Free for promotion)

“The Wise” PDF Direct Download

We release new articles about different subjects on our website, not found in “The Wise” Magazine issues. You can follow “The Wise” web articles by joining our Facebook and Twitter pages. Also you’re invited to join our community and our newsletter from our website.

“The Wise” on Facebook

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“The Wise” is waiting for you.

Hasan “Sonsuz” Celiktas
The Wise Publisher and Editor In Chief

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Words of Truth

Just wanted to share a motivating, inspiring and enlightening article I just read...I needed these words of truth today, maybe you do, too ;))

All things that come to you are gifts from the Creator that you choose not to unwrap, or acknowledge. Goodness is easy to see and find in the long hours of the day but what about all your experiences that are not as easy, not as pretty, and not as fun. All parts of the universe are walking into your world because you summoned them, you put out the clarion call, and you issued a decree – “Come forth into my life Teach me, Show me. The learning’s come whether by pleasure, by pain, by goodness, by badness, by dark, or by light. It does not matter.” You called forth everything that happened to you on this day and yesterday and tomorrow from the very second of your birth to the very second of your death. You called it all into existence. You called to the good guys, you called to the bad guys, you called the lack, and the prosperity. You beckoned it by your thoughts, your words, and your energies.

We say it over and over again; your world is a giant cosmic etch-a-sketch. You are drawing the very blueprints, of your existence. You beckon it forward with your likes, your dislikes, your angers, your loves, your hates, your wants, and your needs. Deny nothing that comes to you. It is all in Divine proportion.
Look to your world for the divinity that you seek. Your world reflects the divinity that you seek. You want angels – angels shall come. You want the Easter bunny – he shall be here too. Whatever on Earth that you ask for – is given to you –you are the favorite children of the Creator! You are the chosen people yet you see it not.
The quickening is upon you, for you, beside you, in you, beneath you, and above you. We are all family members in the heavenly realm, but you were the last-born and the favorite of the Father. Everything was given to you, but like a spoiled child you do not appreciate the gifts. You who are the favorite children, need to remember and choose yourself. Why do you think it is a planet of free choice and free will that you reside upon? Everything revolves around choice, chosen, choose –What will you choose? How will you choose? Who will you choose? You wait energetically for others to choose you, for God to choose you, when all along it has been your choice. You chose, you create, you manifest, from the inside out!
Become the Chosen, the One who chooses the highest Light. Stop denying your divinity. Every minute of your day, every action with every person and every situation -- is divinely instructed and orchestrated what songs are you playing to others? You break bread with the Creator every minute of every day with every breath, every choice, every situation – you are breaking bread with the Divine. Sit at the table of Light and sup upon what has been given you.


Here's the full article.

Monday, May 23, 2011

Two dear friends decided to create a website for foreigners, expats, visitors that is people who somehow ended up in Turkey or are planning to move to this part of the world. The main focus for now will be on Izmir but soon other cities will be added to the list. I would def. have loved to have a guide like this when I first moved to Izmir. Although I'm not a foreigner it felt like changing countries after a life in a big city like Istanbul.
I want to make their voice heard here and, therefore, would like to continue with their own words and introduction. I hope they don't mind :))
Here's what Sheena Nap-Brooks and Isla Selupucin would like everybody to know:

"Helping you live in Turkey happily"


The mission of our site is to help you transition to your new life in Turkey as easily as possible by offering realistic advice, honest articles from experienced "Yabancis" (foreigners) as well as providing an information source on Life in Turkey and how to set up your life here.


The Living Guide topics will relate to the whole of Turkey. It will provide information and articles in the Living that aim to be invaluable in the settling in process examples include How to get...
*Residence permits *Bring your pets here* Renting properties as well as
*Customs regulations *What to do in an emergency and articles on *Turkish Language/Religions and Culture (these are just a small sample of what the site plan to provide)


As we live in Izmir it is only natural that we would want to create a comprehensive guide to living in Izmir for expats and foreigners. The Izmir guide aims to bring information about Izmir that is otherwise hard to find as a foreigner whether you have just arrived or are planning to move to Izmir in the near future. You will find information and articles on

*Where to live (with expat recommendations')
*Activities in Izmir
*Expats Clubs and groups
*Being a mum in Izmir
*Learning the language here as well as the practical information that is explained in the living guide but details that are relevant to Izmir like *how to get a residence permit here *who to contact in an emergency

The Izmir guide will be continually updated with new articles and we look forward to inviting guest authors to contribute articles.

Sheena says:
" is the brain child of two stay-at-home motehrs living abroad in Turkey. Away from family and friends we have had to find a way to make ourselves whole again. We found each other and became good friends. After the birth of my preemie son I knew we would be friends for life. In our attempts to make friends and discoveries for ourselves, we found limited resources in English about Izmir where we live. We were both lucky to be married to Turkes but that is not always the case for other foreigners living in or visiting Turkey. We hope that creating this website can provide some light to situations that might otherwise seem impossible.

At the moment our website has five major functions. The Classifieds which help you buy and sell your stuff, post jobs and sell vehicles and homes. The Izmir Guide which gives information about living in Izmir. Turkish Living Guide is mainly to provide information relevant to all of Turkey. Fourth, the Izmir Directory lists out stores, business, restaurants, and shops in Izmir. Last but not least, the Expat Journal which will have monologues from foreign friends living in Turkey. We will continually be updating the articles on our site and expanding the Izmir Directory.

We want to wish you the best of luck during your time in Turkey. Whether it is long or short we hope to make it better.


Monday, May 9, 2011

Song Of The Day

From the album Mano Suave by Yasmin  Levy.

There's also a documentary with same title by Ruth Behar. More on that here.

Jennifer Hoffman - 'Mother's Day'

Sunday, May 8 we celebrated Mothers' Day in the U.S. And it's a day that we can have mixed feelings about because maybe our mother was not the loving, considerate, thoughtful greeting card model. Instead, she may have been abusive, jealous, mean and inconsiderate. She may have betrayed or abandoned us, not loved us enough or have given her child up for adoption. Yet our mother is our most important karmic relationship and the contract between child and mother is a sacred promise to bring a new life into the world so its healing journey can be completed.
No matter how much we glorify or idealize the idea of motherhood, it is the vehicle through which we all enter the world. We choose a mother and father who have the energies, karmic history, soul group connections and emotional DNA we need to embody in a lifetime and they become our parents. What happens after that is part of our journey of healing and reconnection and we can use that information and those experiences to heal and transform or allow them to become another karmic cycle for us.
We expect our mother to be the paragon of perfection that we believe is the definition of motherhood and think we have been short changed if she isn't. Then we grieve for the missing 'good enough mother', who loves, protects, supports and nurtures us. But who has a mother like that? In my experience, most Lightworkers do not. What we need to ask about is our contract with them and theirs with us, what lessons they held for us and how our time with them has allowed us to grow in body, mind, emotions and spirit. What is the healing we can to complete with our mother, her energies, the mother/child paradigm she taught us and how can we do things differently?
Our generation, those of us who have had children since the 1970s, has to change the mother/child paradigm. And it was through our interaction with our mothers that enabled us to do things differently with our children and be the mother to them that we wanted for ourselves. On this Mother's Day celebrate your life, your presence and your purpose, reflect on the healing and transformation you have done in your life and thank your mother for bringing you here. Then release any anger, regret, sorrow or guilt so you can look at your mother without blame and see her as she is, another presence on the journey that is your lifetime. Use this day to also celebrate the feminine energy, which we all embody and whose expression, in the spiritual sense, is the embodiment of perfect and unconditional love. The feminine energy represents our capacity to give unconditional love and forgiveness to everyone, which is the highest aspect of the feminine energy. And we should take a moment to celebrate Mother Earth, the beautiful planet on which we live, which nourishes and sustains us all.

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Where am I on Mother's Day?

I started 'my' day with a run and James Blunt asking me to "ask myself the question, Where Am I Now??"
Good question. Where am I now? Compared to last year? Three years ago? Or yesterday?
Now, I'm right here, being a mom, also a daughter, a sister, a wife, a woman, sometimes a child, a teenager, a lover, a worker,  a healer, a traveler, a friend, a student, a spiritual soul, a curious person eager to learn and explore life as it is.
Looking for balance, peace, divinity, pleasure, wholeness, love, joy, laughter and fun.

Mother's Day is nothing special in my eyes, just like all other "special" days. It's a day on which I struggle to decide whether I have to call mother-in-law just because she would be offended if I didn't or if I should just do what I really want and not call since she is just not a relevant person, I don't see her as a mother figure (in Turkey you're supposed to call your mother-in-law "Anne" that is mom and I have a prob with that, I think it's an unnecessary act of fake behavior). In the end, I still called her since I just didn't want to deal with her offended attitude for the next few weeks (not that I see her very often, but still).
My husband didn't call my mom, on the other hand, and neither I nor my mom would ever show any kind of reaction to that.
I have a problem with things you are "supposed to do."

I want to close this post with some calm & peaceful piece of music. The song is called resistance and I would like to stop resisting to all sorts of things. Resistance causes trouble, you can't achieve what you want, you can't attract what you want, by resisting you block the energy and feel bad. I let go resistance.

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Opening up

I just read an article about relationships in the new energy, it really appealed to me, made me realize that I'm still slightly reluctant to receive help or love, esp. the following sentence made me smile; "being able to receive or even ask for help when we need it, accepting compliments, and allowing our partner to nurture us are some of the ways we can be open to receive"
I've been working on opening up, asking more often for help, accepting love and compliments...but there must be a reason why I came across this article...and I sensed it while reading. I'm still quite closed.
So today I'd like to declare that I want to open the back of my heart chakra as wide as possible. I want to accept and receive what I'm willing to give.

"...In all the years I’ve been a healer I’ve noticed that those on the spiritual path have an easier time giving then receiving. The front of the heart chakra is wide open to giving love and of themselves, however, the back of the heart chakra located in the middle of the back tends to be closed due to difficulty in allowing others to give to them. In order for any relationship to be in balance it is essential to give and receive equally, though not necessarily in the same way. We give what we have and what the person may need at the time. Being able to receive or even ask for help when we need it, accepting compliments, and allowing our partner to nurture us are some of the ways we can be open to receive.

Love has the power to heal away all of our old hurts and wounds. We have all been wounded in many ways through our life experiences. Being vulnerable and opening up to a beloved partner can be healing to the soul. I’m not referring to a co-dependent relationship where we lose ourselves in another person and expect them to make everything better for us or for us to fix them. It’s about taking the relationship we’re in to the next level or entering one and experiencing a mutually loving and nurturing partnership."

Here's the full article.

Sunday, April 24, 2011

An article I Iiked...on quantum thinking and more

Our last 2 days in's been a lovely week. And today I had this strange feeling that this visit wasn't just about meeting family and having fun. I had to be here. I had to learn something. This Mercury Retro was again mainly about letting go and in my case I think it was letting go the childish anger against my mom that I thought I had let go before. I realized that it wasn't actually anger but the desire to take revenge. I wanted to pay back for my early years as a child and esp. teenager when she was so strict and I couldn't really reply and had almost zero connection to her. Now I could reply and I could say she was wrong and I could criticize her and I could show my anger and I could even tell her off. Just to make up those early years.
My ego was so determined that even the slightest comment or move made me tense. My higher self, on the other hand, was determined to stop feeling tense and work this out somehow. They (false self&true self) were having constant rows and fights but eventually managed to sort it out and now that I've named it, as revenge that is, I can deal with it more easily and the ego's voice is diminishing more and more. I can hardly hear it anymore....

Anyways, I wanted to share a link to an article I liked about creativity and quantum thinking. In fact, it's quite irrelevant but when I started to post I had the urge to share my current emotions and feelings.  Please click here to read the article.

Love and light from Istanbul.

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

At Home

I realize, it's nice to have a place you can go back to and call home. To escape, to return and to miss the current daily life. Our days in Istanbul are pleasant, esp. for Ela..she's enjoying her time with Oma and Opa. And I'm amazed to see how different my mom is with her than she was with me. Our not so close relationship probably suffered from her being busy with work& study when I was little and coming home tired. She did her best and I simply  thought she could do better. I made peace with this quite a while ago and can clearly  see that she wants to use this chance to show her motherly affection and compassion (which she skipped on me) to Ela.
Of course, there are moments when I can feel that they would like to comment on things like half an hour ago when Ela refused to nap in her cot and had a mini-tantrum and after a while my dad came in and asked what's wrong, couldn't she sleep later, blabla...but I'm prepared, I'm determined to be patient and still not give in and do it my way. And they are obviously determined to be respectful enough so the tension is bearable in such situations.

Weather-wise it's like winter these days, dark, wet and cold...but I don't mind, during the week I have lots of work to do anyway and it doesn't hurt me to spend our free times in shopping malls (it does hurt my wallet tho!)

It looks like sunny days will be back on Thurs so I made some nice plans for the weekend...

Friday, April 15, 2011

Off to Istanbul

In a few hours Ela and I will head off to Istanbul. I'm happy and excited!
The next 10 days will bring new routines, experiences, relaxation, fun, family time, maybe also some stress, different places, lots of shopping (just in time for Shopping Fest :p), more time for work, lots of love & playtime for Ela and the good feeling of being home again.
But this will be the very first time that I'm really going to miss Izmir, our friends, our meetings, our chats...this is a totally new feeling for me (missing Izmir that is) and I truly like it. It's one of the gifts that came with Ela; coming closer with precious people, having more opportunities to socialize, having the desire to make the best of the time I have.

Saturday, April 9, 2011

How I feel these days...

Flowery, summery, excited, happy, curious, sometimes overwhelmed, busy, social, interested in the new, open, colorful, supported, needed, ready to travel, talkative, rooted, healing.....

Monday, April 4, 2011

April Forecast by Susan Miller

Akashic Records For April 2011 (by Jen Eramith MA)

What energies and experiences can we expect in April 2011?

The feeling this month is similar to the feeling of going down a roller coaster. The collective energy speeds up so that time will seem to pass more quickly, and you may feel as if you cannot keep track of things very well. For many of you, it is going to feel like things are metaphorically “going downhill” in your life. It is important this month, to stay calm and to remind yourself every day to trust and to be loving with yourself and with others.
Many people are going to feel like their lives are out of control this month. It feels that way, but what is really happening, if you look at the big picture of the year, is that you are learning where you need more structural support in your life. It is so important this year that each of you does the work you need to do in your life to set yourself up for success. It is so important that you build structures in your life that support you, that you build relationships that are supportive, and that you set up routines in your life that are supportive. It is time to take care of everything and fix the things that are not working. It is so important that you do this, this year if you are going to be ready for what is continuing to happen through 2012 and the years to come.
Anything in your life that is not stabilized yet, anything that you are not taking care of yet, is going to start moving very quickly this month in order to bring your attention to it. For some of you, this month might feel like hitting rock bottom. If you need to hit rock bottom in some pattern in your life, this will be the month that you hit it. It is so important to be gentle with yourself, to be nurturing. The more you are willing to step up and take care of yourself and rebuild the parts of your life that need rebuilding, the more easily this month will go by.

How can we find the greatest benefit from this energy?

The way to find the greatest benefit this month is, first and foremost, to keep remembering to trust and to love. But, second to that, it will really serve you to be organized and to take the time needed to back up and start again when things are not going well. If you start a process and part way through you realize it is not working well, it is better this month to stop and go back and start again than it is to try to stick with it and just close your eyes and get to the end of it. Any challenge coming up right now, is there so that you will rebuild the structure. So it is not going to serve anyone to close your eyes and barrel forward this month.
The whole reason that this energy is set up is to encourage you to stop and slow down and start again and fix things as you go. So be organized, make lists, look around your home or your office and just think about how things work. Are belongings placed in a most beneficial location? Are there certain objects or belongings standing in your way? What offers daily frustration and how can you change it so that frustration is no longer part of your daily routine? These are the questions to ask yourself. Do the same thing for relationships. What are the relationships that continually feel blocked? How can you back up and start again? Can you change your expectations with this person? Can you change the way you communicate with them? Find ways to change the structures in your life to make them work better.
This month is going to feel like it is going by really fast and so you are going to feel a tendency to want to just close your eyes and just keep moving forward. But you are meant to stop and start again every time you find something not working.

Jen Eramith MA

Saturday, April 2, 2011

Visual Update

Hey!!! This ban has kind of forced us to give a break and there's sooo much to catch up but unfortunately no time so a quick visual update with pix of the last few days...
We're all very well; very busy with work, social life and preparing for our Istanbul trip on April 15.
Nice to finally have the mild spring weather, even the rain doesn't bother too much...

E.'s best friends Elis & Alisa...they truly suffer if they don't see each other every day...this is our new front of the Tally Weijl shop in prevent any complaints by shop owners we buy a T-Shirt in turns once in a while ;))

Saturday, March 12, 2011

Fave Time Of The Year Approaching

Today I felt it, spring is around the corner...very soon birds will be heard more, flowers will be blooming, people will start smiling again, senses will awaken, freshness will be in the air.
I love this time of the year.
It's also the time I was born (April 23)...maybe a re-birth kind of experience for me every year.
A busy week is coming, a full schedule that makes me feel good, complete and whole.

Here some shots of Ela while I was having my early dinner at a nice Italian restaurant called MiCasa in Alsancak.

Friday, March 11, 2011

Street Entertainers - Living Statues in Izmir

I met these living statues in Barcelona for the first time, in front of the Sagrada Familia.
They looked so beautiful and I wanted to photograph them, but they suddenly hid their faces from me. It took me a few seconds to figure out that they wanted a few coins. Only then I got my shot and a nice smile :)
For the last 2 years a group of street entertainers in Izmir have also been performing this interesting form of art in Alsancak. Here's today's performance...